I'm just a big douchebag. Noone pay any attention to what I write in here. None of it makes any sense. I'm just gonna stop. Noone reads it anyway. What's the point. It's like I'm talking to myself. WTF is wrong with me? I think I'm skitzophrenic. Oh well, Loner is now abandoned. It is a barren wasteland for people to spit upon and feel better about themselves because they are not me. Goodbye!

I don't want to fall in love ever again. It hurts way too much...

I'm sorry about everything. I feel I've lost all my friends. I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted to see me again. I wouldn't want to either. I'm so ashamed of myself. I hate myself. I'm gonna stay out of everyone's lives. You'll all be better off without me screwing everything up. I just want to die...

I screwed up so bad. I thought I could trust you. I guess I was wrong. Everything is all messed up. I need to stop talking all together. I never help the situation out at all. I'm all alone once again it seems...

I'm excited!! I get to see my most favorite person in the entire world this weekend, and that is NAYA!!!!!!!! I'm soooo happy!! k buh bye.

This is from the book that I am currently reading. I really like this so I am putting it up on here for you to enjoy, 'you' being my friends, haha i dunno....

"We cannot tell the precise moment when friendship is formed. As in filling a vessel drop by drop, there is at last a drop which makes it run over; so in a series of kindnesses there is at last one which makes the heart run over."

It is such a beautiful day outside today. I wish I had something to do so I could really enjoy, but I have nothing at all to do.... I'll just stay inside and do nothing like always. What a waste of a day.....

I'm gonna go to bed early for once 'cause I'm really freakin' tired.....Goodnight!!

I got burned really badly, the sun hates me....

Naya doesn't comment my blog anymore, I'm sad : (

Last Train Home by Lostprophets

To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know what's going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here

But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love

But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To never fall in love
To never fall in love again...

To never fall in love again...

another shitty weekend....

I hate having to hide my feelings. It looks as though I have to, this sux....

Life just isn't fair, ah whatever......

blah, blah, blah, I am so fucking bored............

I think I'm addicted to water. I can't stop drinking it.

Sammy is such an awesome person. I'm glad I'm getting to know her better.

It must be so awesome to have a girlfriend. To have someone to be close to, to kiss, to hold, to be completely dumb with. To have someone that makes you happy all the time. To fall asleep in their arms, and keep you warm when you're cold. Someone to smile at you just because you are there. I wish I could have that.....

Crime is a shit that needs wiping up!!

missing my bestest friend ever.... : (

I hate this band, but I like this song for some reason....

The Kill By 30 Seconds To Mars

What if I wanted to break?
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if i fell to the floor?
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do,do,do?

Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight?
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do,do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you,you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?

From now on I need to be more positive and uplifting. I hate being sad and dumb all the time. Time to be happy...

i just don't know.....

I don't want to mess things up, I'm gonna stop now, with everything...

I have to learn to keep my typing hands from typing too much...

I'm so fucking stupid, sorry.....

I'll just hide my feelings deep down inside where noone can see them...

I just love this song, man.

Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd

Mama told me, when I was young
Come sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely, to what I say.
And if you do this
It will help you, some sunny day.

Take your time... don't live too fast,
Troubles will come, and they will pass.
You'll find a woman, and you'll find love,
And don't forget son,
There is someone up above.

And be a simple kind of man.
Be something you love and understand.
Baby, be a simple kind of man.
Won't you do this for me son,
If you can?

Forget your lust, for the rich man's gold
All that you need, is in your soul,
And you can do this, oh babe, if you try.
All that I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

And be a simple kind of man.
Be something you love and understand.
Baby, be a simple kind of man.
Won't you do this for me son,
If you can?

Boy, don't you worry... you'll find yourself.
Follow your heart, and nothing else.
And you can do this, oh babe, if you try.
All that I want for you my son,
Is to be satisfied.

And be a simple kind of man.
Be something you love and understand.
Baby, be a simple kind of man.
Won't you do this for me son,
If you can?

Baby, be a simple... be a simple man...

Nothing ever works out the way that you want it to......

I just want to be loved. Maybe that is asking too much..........

A lot can sure happen in just one weekend. I'm so glad that it didn't end the way I thought it was going to. I was so happy, and still am happy....